She had often become acquainted with a delightful madness. A tingling insanity. A shortness of breath. Her eyes could look through the sky to see what was on the other side.

It has been a long time since she’s felt anything at all.

She held out her hand to me.

She was just out of my reach.

They walked into the white abyss, unafraid.

She fell back until all she could hear were her own footsteps and the sound of the Earth forming itself.

“This is where God lives,” she whispered, looking inward.

We are all reflections of each other. Choose your mirrors wisely.

EQ: You are the Wilma to my Betty. You are the soy to my joy.

True friendship is a gift.

Dave and Christy,

My heart brims with love and appreciation for you.

DG - I adore you. I consider myself blessed and fortunate for your friendship. You inspire me. You are a gift in my life.

CG - Your breathtaking smile, laughter, confidence and honesty make you a strong presence in any room you’re in. You are, simply put, beautiful.

Thank you for letting me share in your life.

Yours in light,

Sara

P.S. I love the joy I see in both of you when you’re looking at precious Baby G. She is gorgeous. I can’t wait to turn her into a hippie.



P.P.S. I love your wieners.

Lately, my mind is swarming. I am expanding into something so much greater than myself.

The light motioned toward apathy.

Extinguished.

I’m exhausted.

Work
With less than 6-months under my belt at my new job, I feel like I have made an impact. I feel like I have learned a great deal about myself. I feel like I have met people that will be in my life for years to come. I feel like I am working myself to an early grave. I feel like I have never given more of myself to anything. I am grateful, nourished, overwhelmed and depleted all at once.

On going (mostly) Vegan
About two months ago I decided to go (mostly) Vegan. It has been surprisingly easy. I feel good about what I’m doing and why I’m doing it. I can’t claim to be a purist, however. If a cookie crosses my path on a rough day…

Letting go
I am finally free of the guilt I have felt. I have found peace.

Lately I’ve been struggling with the idea of selfish vs. self-interested vs. selfless. In each of us all three qualities exist, one being more dominant. My hope is that I am more self-interested and selfless than I am selfish.

On being self-interested

• I know I’m better off if I take care of myself first. As an introvert, I need time alone to recharge. I need my workouts, acupuncture and plenty of sleep every night so that I have the best shot at being the woman I want to be. If I start to sacrifice these things for any reason, I end up not liking myself very much, and that leads to serious problems in my life.

On being selfless

• In my world, being self-interested lends itself to being selfless. If I can take care of myself, I’m going to be better in my dynamics and relationships, and that’s the reason why I do it. My intent is always to be the best version of myself that I can be because the people in my life deserve that.

And while I’m on the topic

• People who interrupt are selfish. They aren’t listening. They’re just waiting for their turn to talk. Anybody who knows me knows that I really hate it when people interrupt. Even I am not exempt from this - while interrupting is a behavior I loathe, I know I do it from time to time despite my intent to be more aware of how I am interacting with someone during conversation.

Currently

• In typical introvert style, I’ve retreated into myself. Nobody has seen a complete version of me in months. I am looking forward to feeling whole again, and I will soon enough. When I’m ready.
• As I have been witness to my heart’s healing, I have learned that all of the qualities I desire in a partner are qualities I must have within myself. I must become the person that I want to fall in love with. And I have every desire to do just that.

We can all be free.